Walking through life in awe of God and laughing my head off!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Did you remember that yesterday was Epiphany? Do you know what Epiphany is? It's after the twelve day's of Christmas and it's the day that the Wise men came to see Jesus. It falls on January 6th ever year. In Ireland all the wife's and mother's are given the day off, which I think should happen here in the states. Epiphany is all about beholding. It's coming to something that we think we have seem before, only this time it appears different, we see it for the first time, fresh and anew. It's a place where we abide in silence and receive our heart's vision. Are you looking for a vision? Are you seeing the reality around you? Is that just a little too deep to jump into today?
Well, how bout we look at another question from Wesley?
Did the Bible live in me today?
I gotta say that it did. It blows my mind that when I get still and spend time seeking God, he will show up. Now I've been up since 2:30 this morning, so getting out of bed finally at 6:00 and closing my eye's to pray is what I think of as a little chancy, but I did it anyway. I have been finding that I want to be like the person at the end of the group of calf pushers, wanting to head for higher ground, wanting something safe. I'm frustrated in the place that God has me right now and all the tricks that I have used in the past are not helping me one bit right now. I have no one near enough to go spend time in pray with like I use to with Pat and MaryHelen. I can't go to a retreat at Peg's house and hang out with Jesus. I here in NWA (NorthWest Arkansas, or NoWhere Arkansas) drying up like fruit forgotten on the vine. I'm a little consumed with my plight and in all honesty I'm looking for God to release me from this church and being faithful to it! Then it happened, I read Charles Stanley's further question for study and it said Where is your focus? Read Lamentations 3:19-26. There it was, the Bible living, speaking to me right there and then.
The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul that seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
So in order to answer this question I must live this out, today! In all that I do...dang it! God is not releasing me from anything, and at the looks of it, he ain't going to. So things are starting to look a little differently, almost like an Epiphany for me. I'm starting to see that God really does have a plan for me, even if I have no idea what it is, or why he doesn't consult me on the matter. I have to do my part and let God be God, cuz really, he doesn't need me to be OK with anything. He wants me to have a joyful heart about it and that's what I'm going to work on. So I ask you, did the Bible speak to you today?