Fall

I'm preparing for yet another weekend out of town. At times, I'd like to go on retreat and just stay away. Do you ever find yourself wanting to just not be doing anything that you're doing presently? At work, I've been getting more hours, and that's all well and good, so that the clothes I buy will be paid for, but I'm finding I'd like to be at home a little more so other parts of my life could get done. Maybe this has been a really busy week, and I'm needing some down time. Maybe it's that we're approaching the end of the Daniel fast, and I'm ready to be done with it. We have lost some weight, and that always makes you feel better, but in thinking about what God has shown me over these 21 days, I gotta say I'm not all that thrilled with it.

What I believe He has shown me is that right now, my roots are growing stronger in Him, not in my situation. I am to lean on Him and trust that His plan is far better than mine, even if I don't think so right now. It's all a process, I know that, but it's a hard process, being thrown out into this place that doesn't see things the way I've learned to see them. I'm sure that's part of the plan, though. I'm sad that we only gave communion a month. I was hoping it would lead to something deeper in the way of praying for and with people.

Both of the Bible studies I'm in will be ending in two weeks, and I'm good with that. I talk with the Olin Mills guy today, because no one else in the church seems to be able to, and they haven't had a directory done in over five years. I'm doing it for totally selfish reasons; since people don't wear name tags, I gotta learn who they are somehow. I'm also not doing the last home game for the Razorbacks, as I have to work that day at Coldwater. The days are getting shorter and cooler, and while I love fall, I know that winter is coming, and with it comes a time for me to slow down and rest too. In a way, I'm looking forward to it. It's change, and I've learned to look forward to change.

So how are things beginning to change with the seasons for you? Are you slowing down, coming to the end of some things? Oh, by the way, we sold the Jeep, so we are downsizing during this season.