This is one of my air plants. I use to have more than I do now, which is something a Master Gardener doesn't like to admit. This crazy thing is blooming. As I think about it, it's bloomed every year since I got it. It just sits in this window day in and day out and then BAM! It blooms.
This is something that sustains me. Blooms in the dead of winter. Just when I was looking for another reason to be upset about something, God let's this very small plant bloom right in front of me to remind me...
There is beauty if I but look.
In order for me to see, while I'm looking, I need to be open to what God has for me. If I make my mind up before hand that all is not right in my world, this gift of a flower might be missed.
I'm having a hard time with things not being right in my world right now. Things have not gone as I had hoped and dreamed.
But God...
He gives me just enough to keep on keeping' on.
How about you? What sustains you? Are you looking for them? If you aren't looking, are you at least being open?
This is Fat Tuesday! Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday and the start of the season of Lent. I am preparing to walk with Jesus from the mountain to the cross.
Lord, give me eyes to see and ears to hear!
I have tried to write many times, and nothing encouraging or witty or life giving is coming forth. So I don't.
But there is this welling up in my soul that needs an outlet. It's a pressure that threatens to consume. It takes my breath and yet I find myself holding it out of an old habit I thought broke. So I started walking.
I can't sit still, my nerves are raw as is my tongue. It's hard to be here, in this place of possible transformation. Maybe this is why not everyone chooses to go through this crap. It's hard to dream here.
Keep moving forward, look up, breath, hang in there... we have all said it, so please, don't. Don't you see?! Can't you feel it?!
Today I dressed in running clothes. Got my phone, said Hello to Nike App and off I went. Running and walking. Action, movement, not being stagnant.
I ran and I cried.
Surely, you have not forgotten me.
