I'm not sure if it's only a handful of us feeling the pull to be somewhat in control of the turns our lives take or not, but I'm feeling really out of sorts all the way down to the core of my being. The turn this country is taking breaks my heart! The turn the church is making boils my blood. And I know deep in my heart that the vast majority of us really do care for each other, we are just so stinking' scared to do anything, afraid it will be wrong and we'll get killed.
I told preacher man I want to do something. I'm not sure what it should be, but I want to do something. Now hold on, not that kind of crazy, but maybe go to the square in town with a sign that says "I care, I pray and I hug". Just spend a hot July day out there in it.
If it breaks my heart, I know it's breaking God's! Love your neighbor as yourself.... Or at least try.
So, I'm not sure what to do at this point. I feel the call to action, but that action is about love. I wonder if anyone else feels the call to help heal the hurt?
Peace~
I seem to be hung up on a phase I read a few weeks ago in a book a friend is making me read. OK, she's not making me read it, like holding a gun to my head, but she's a friend from the group of friends that if they tell me to read a book, well, I read that book. The phase is Mind the Gap.
The author explains the gap in light of the London Underground. People will tell you to mind the gap that's the space between the edge of the landing platform and the car. You don't want to fall down in it!
Also, transitions are gaps.
They mark the gap between the no longer and the not yet. They are the space where we are neither in one place nor another... They mark the place where a certain order breaks down and chaos arises.
This is the gap that I find myself in. I've have said more than a few times, I'm over this and moving on, there's no stopping me now! I was in the gap for about 62 day's but I realized I was there and I jumped out of it. Yip! That's about right. I'm gapless.
And I see Jesus smile at me.
The thing about gaps, is also the thing about God, neither can be controlled, they have to be experienced. I can tell myself all day long that I'm in control of my life and that I'm on a new road, but unless I give up the control to God and let Him lead me through this gap area of gapness, I'm only fooling myself. One thing I'm learning is that the sooner you give up the control, the sooner God can do what needs to be done.
This is a strange time for me. Opportunity is knocking on a door that has been closed for a long time.
I'm still in the the gap between the no longer and the not yet.
