Wore out?

I've been blown away by the effect Easter has had on me. As a PW (Preacher's Wife) more things get on me than your normal non-PW, you know...the wife's out there. We have to be that support that comes from a deep place so that the Preacher Man can wear clean underwear, eat enough protein to keep up that smile, and brush the demon's off his back when he comes home for breaks. It really is a never ending cycle of strange demands that was not taught in seminary!

For some strange reason, I thought Christmas was going to be the big demanding Holy holiday that would pull me to the edge of the cliff and call me to jump in order to save myself. I was wrong. It was Easter.

I think it has to do with the preparation during Lent. No, that can't be it, we had Advent before Christmas. Maybe it was the lack of the church knowing how to prepare that wore me out. I found myself saying, a lot to other's, Spend time with Jesus, just be with him on his way to the cross. I believe in the mist of this time, I did spend that time just being with Jesus.

I feel like that was what he craved, and no one would really do it. He asked them to stay awake while he prayed, sleep over came them. He was denied by Peter, left alone in chains, beat to the point of death, and the one person who did struggle to get to him, wasn't allowed to comfort her child.

So I spent time just being with Jesus and it was hard. It pulled my life right to the surface of my being and it hung there, raw and open. It literally wore me out, physically, emotionally and mentally. So I'm done, stick a fork in me kinda done! Lay on the floor and not shower for a few days kinda done!

Preacher man, being a man of secret smartness, that remains hidden from me, even after 20 years, has planned this vacation to commence after church this Sunday and last for ruffly two weeks. So now, preparing for said vacation is wearing me out... More to come....  

Easter Week

Wow! Preacher man asked me after Easter services, if I thought Christmas was busier or Easter. I thought about it for 2.3 seconds and said EASTER! 

In the life of the church there is a lot going on during Advent. Things to hang, parties to go to, presents to buy and wrap, houses to prepare, you know, a lot of stuff. 

There doesn't seem to be that much going on at Easter. I mean, we do the Easter egg hunt, we order the lilies, we make the youth do the sunrise service, but in the life of the church, there doesn't seem to be as much going on. Yet, in the life of the disciple, there is a lot going happening on the inside.

The disciple has been walking with Jesus in his passion, on his way to the cross. Taking the time to look into the eyes of the man that would die, so that we could live. To stand at the foot of the cross with the Mary's and John as Jesus breaths his last breath. I gotta tell you people, if you haven't done that... it will flat wear you out!

So that's where I find myself right now, wore out. But it's good and it's wide and it's different...I'm different. I think that's what Easter is about, becoming different.

To me, Christmas celebrates Easter. 

Holy Week was like living through winter and now Easter Week is like living in spring. 

Preacher man rocked the house by the way. http://sylvanhillsumc.com/System/Media/Play.asp?id=38577&Key=3223711C-0FAE-4456-A306-5D0C2C7B205A